"Derailed by Love" - TESTIMONY

Pastor David,

    I wanted to thank u for ur msg "Derailed by Love". This msg touched me in a way u cannot imagine. Today before i checked my email I decided I was finally going to end things with a guy I had been in a relationship with for 5 yrs. I grew up in church since I was born and had a very strong walk with God. When we first met I thought I would give it a shot even though I knew he did not know God like I did. We had been off and on for majority of the relationship but I love him so i continued to stay.

Months after dating him my parents told me I needed to stop this relationship because he was not from God and he had no desire to know God better. I didn’t listen and I continued to see him behind my parent’s back. Through out the years in our relationship I experienced a lot of hurt. When I first met him he didn’t drink, smoke and over all was a respectful guy. This changed a year into our relationship. He began drinking excessively, smoking weed, and began to gamble. I stood by his side during and put up with all this because I loved him.

Along with the bad habits he began to tear me down emotionally and verbally abused me. He no longer talked to me in a way that showed love or patience. There was a time we went to the movies and we were watching the previews and he got upset at me because I accidentally scratched him when I passed him the popcorn. He got angry and began to yell at me then grabbed my hand and squeezed it so hard it felt like he broke my hand so I began to cry. During the movie he apologized and I forgave him because I loved him. At times he would be sweet but that never lasted long. He began to pick at my appearance and call me names but I continued to stay because I loved him.

During the times we were “off” we still acted as though we were together. We continued to do ungodly things in our relationship. I knew all of this was wrong but I continued to stay because I loved him. I later started finding text msgs, pics, and facebook msgs from other girls he began flirting with. He always told me he loved and cared about me, but I couldn’t understand if he did then why was I not enough for him. I continued to stay because I loved him and wanted to make sure I would always be enough for him. My walk with God stopped shortly after I met him. I no longer had a relationship with God because I was now looking to this guy to fill me and give me love.

During our relationship I kept getting hurt, but I never knew that hurt could get worse. I became pregnant with his child. While I was pregnant he didn’t take good care of me, didn’t want to give me money to help with the doctor bills, and began to verbally abuse me because I started gaining weight from the pregnancy. A couple months into the pregnancy I became lost and had an abortion. I continued to stay with him because I loved him.

Things changed for a couple months and were good, but he quickly returned to his old ways. I found more msgs from other girls and again he claimed I was his love and the only girl he saw his future with. This morning I was with him and finally reached my limit with the way we chose to love me bc I found new msgs of him flirting once again. I began to feel depressed again because he was the person who supposedly loved me. After I returned from his place, I checked my email and saw “Derailed by Love” was posted on the website and honestly I never notice the notifications from this website. But for some reason out of all the emails I had this email was the top email in my mail box.

I just finished listening to the msg n it gave me hope. I knew this relationship wasn't right and my parents told me this but I loved him and I stuck with it just for that. Instead of spending the last 5 years establishing God's kingdom, I allowed my soul to diminish. This relationship left me emotionally derailed, broken, and destroyed inside. I let it take me away from God's plan for me. I really needed to hear this msg for encouragement and to help me get back on the right path with God. Thank you for letting God use u as a vessel to reach me. He knew I was going to need this msg today at this very moment.

~ Virtuous Woman

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